I have feelings for H-. I think? I don't even know what having feeling for someone is anymore. He's so funny, and has fun little quirks and if I could spend a day doing something fun with anyone it would be with him. Yet I can't picture us together. I can see us sitting together and laughing, even holding hands, but I cant imagine kissing or anything more. Maybe I need to see him in a different light. Currently I see him as the lighthearted wit. If I can look at him differently, and see him as an individual, I could develop those extra feelings.
Not that I should. I shouldn't.