Ten

I really am not that accomplished of a person. The best thing I can say I've done was won a bronze metal in the south African swimming championships in 7th grade. That was 4+ years ago. Other than that, I can play the piano on a beginner level, paint at a slightly above average skill level, and that's it. Yet somehow I still look at myself as some magnificent person. Or at least someone complex. So is it fair to count my mind as an accomplishment? Is it fair to count my mind as a quality/skill I posses? Because as far as anyone (besides a select few) can see I'm not deep, or complex, or anything. I feel like if I talk about the deeper thoughts I have, out loud others will think I'm pretentious or strange. And I know, caring what other people think completely contradicts my entire philosophy on life, but when it comes down to it, avoiding hurt is still the number one thing that controls me. So people don't see that I have this "skill" or accomplishment, that I believe is the depths of my mind. Which makes me wonder if others also have this "skill". Because if most people are deeper thinkers, then my ability to see clearly, or to think deeply wouldn't really be an accomplishment.
Which brings me back to, would the ability to think deeply be a valid accomplishment or skill, even if not many people possessed that ability? Is thinking higher of myself for being (seemingly) profound, valid? Would it be valid if I expressed my inner thoughts instead of just thinking them?
Normally I can think through these questions and provide an answer. But this is really just a matter of opinion, which I don't take as truth. For now I will keep on thinking that my clarity is a skill, while keeping in mind I could be completely off base.